23 years i have lived.

*Of the i will nots..*

I will not pander to your judgement calls.

I will not live by your moral code.

I will not surrender to those i deem not worthy.

I will not entertain your boring, stifling ideas simply because you attempt to subdue my natural wilder instincts.

I will not compromise. Not for you. Not even for myself

*Of the i wills..*

I will do exactly as i please, whenever i please and whomever i please.

I will listen to only one person - myself.

I will cut you out of my life anytime i wish to - just so you know.

I will hold the strings like always. - To hell with you if you cannot deal with that.

I will fly free. For now and forever.

There, the emo birthday resolution list has been put up. Not much of a drastic change from how i've always been like though. Nevertheless, since being this way works for me.. so, sense in changing things eh?

Promises to expound on the birthday weekend in the next post. With plenty of pictures too! I'm in abit of a reflective mood at the moment, so the motivation to write isn't quite there.

I've been listening to this one song on repeat for quite awhile. Check out the lyrics and the song itself, if u can find it on youtube or cooltoad. The genre is goth metal and the singing style veers towards opera-ish.. the overall effect is rather addictive

Nightwish - Sleeping Sun

The sun is sleeping quietly
Once upon a century
Wistful oceans calm and red
Ardent caresses laid to rest

For my dreams I hold my life
For wishes I behold my night
The truth at the end of time
Losing faith makes a crime

I wish for this night-time
to last for a lifetime
The darkness around me
Shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you

Sorrow has a human heart
From my god it will depart
I'd sail before a thousand moons
Never finding where to go

Two hundred twenty-two days of light
Will be desired by a night
A moment for the poet's play
Until there's nothing left to say

I wish for this night-time...
I wish for this night-time...